I got you, but they’re your kids my dude, you have to change some things for them, if you can’t do 18 hours maybe try 16 eating small portions, I know it’s not the same, but the only person more important for me than myself it’s my son and if being with him changes my IF hours, so be it
Don’t be so hard on yourself OP, you’ll find a way
Mindset by Carol Dweck, I have read it easily ten times. Something I noticed in my own life was that when things were easy, I could do things easily. As soon as life started throwing spanners in my face, that was when my character came out. That book helped me to understand that being happy is weathering whatever challenges life throws at you.
So basically I got to the point, where instead of stopping the things that were important when things got tough, I made those things even more important. Please message me anytime if you need help, I really want to see you find long term success. Good luck! <3