I’ve fasted for 113hrs so far. Tomorrow noon it’ll be at around 132hrs.
I’m planning on breaking with a salad, some eggs maybe. But I’m scared of overeating and binging. I don’t wanna binge. I’ll either break tomorrow or on saturday. Then start over again on sunday.
I feel this feeling of dread thinking about breaking because I feel like I’ll lose control.
Any advice?
My advice is to continue to repeat eating and fasting and while fasting focus diligently on your perception. What you do, how you feel, a lot of it is a complex make-up of habits formed, and neurochemical stimulation of dopamine - among others.
Find what you want, think on it. You are the master of your internal universe. There, ultimately, is no one but you. Consider your thoughts, and work through them in the time that is needed. The hard work is not easy, but with effort you will learn control of yourself in the way that lets you achieve what you desire without holding you back.
It helps me to break fast with really delicious and hearty foods. Something that is ultimately satisfying. Like steak and baked potatoes or sushi or something. I slowly chew and experience each bite, put the fork down after each bite and contemplate the all of the things I missed over the fast. The emptiness that is now filling. The mouth sensations. The swallowing. The amazing flavors. It’s really hard to overeat when approaching it this way because your brain has plenty of time to send the full signal.