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No no no, I don’t know where to start. You don’t want to surround yourself with people who value how you look more than who you are. You just don’t and you know it.
Flirt with whoever you are attracted to today, get your hair dyed today and wear whatever clothes appeal to you today. Don’t delay anything for a future point in time.
Get out of this “I am fat” prison right now. Even your username is self-defacement based, I fear. Please don’t do this to yourself.
There will always be someone thinner than yourself, taller, more muscular, better cheekbones, bigger eyes, shinier hair… Today, next year and 10 years from now. Are you gonna hide like a hermit crab because you are not the best?
Look around you, look at your friends, colleagues, relatives, are they perfect? Are you waiting for them to loose weight, to like them? What is it that makes you more attracted to some people than others? It’s the JOY they bring to the people around them. Be that joyful person, TODAY.
I obviously don’t know what you look like, but I can tell you this much - do what you want to do and you will feel more confident. Dye your hair blonde, wear those clothes you want, and get into that relationship! Being true to who you want to be will help you feel better about yourself! Taking care of your appearance will make you more self confident. Screw what other people think, if you want it - rock that look! Do it now, you don’t need to wait on the “perfect weight” to begin to live your life!
Edit: I can also promise you this, you’re always going to find people who think or say negative things about you - even if you look like a supermodel. The only person you should be striving to gain their approval from is yourself.