Sorry if this isn’t the appropriate place for this. But fasting has been such a huge part of my life for the past two years, and I’ve taken such pride in keeping up a consistent 48/72 rolling schedule
But, about two weeks ago my ass got dumped. And now, while I know I shouldn’t, I keep breaking the fasts I used to be so solid at. I flip into justifying things I never would before. A lot of the time with alcohol which then spirals into eating. I know I should be patient with myself but I hate that I can’t keep control of this. I keep a majority of my fasting stuff away from people irl because they fall into the whole “you’re starving yourself” nonsense, so this extra guilt of not being able to be consistent with this in addition to the big bad feels of the breakup makes me feel like I’m going to explode…
I really do want to thank you guys for always being a community that inspires and drives me. 💛
Before fasting, and feeling all that, you are human.
And is perfectly normal to be overwhelmed by everyone,and everything around us.
So, trying to keep a perfect record of everything we use to do, just after a emotional earthquake is a little utopic for my humble and inexpert point of view.
Since fasting in our consensual reality and modern society is more a choice and a will exercise, the fact that your mind is working on other issues, and trying to solve, face or overcome troubles (in the outside and the inside), is perfectly normal and even to be expected that you do things differently.
So remember that you are human, and that you are not what other say’s, you are what you decide.
Breath, fix what you can, heal what not, and let go trash and burdens.
Then do what you will.